When I first lied down on your bed
when I studied the brown of your fireplace
the brown of the blunt in your hand outside
brown skin matching the brownness of mine
The Princess Diaries 2 was on
Strange house
your queen sized bed with no frame
but the softest cover placed perfectly on top
Familiarity filled the room
You asked me if I wanted you to turn it off
I said “No”
I said “Don’t take this safe haven from me”
I watched them slide on mattresses during a slumber party
As you plowed yourself into me
Every time you came over
Cartoon network
Summer afternoons
Sunlight luring in from the bottom of the window
The greenest grass all year
The Amazing World of Gumball
I can hear children playing outside
They run and ask each other where the other is going
I ask you to whisper in my ear that you own me
I am old enough now to know the irony
Of wanting you inside of me
while watching Y7 tv shows and G rated movies
Young Justice League Plays in the background
And you pause it
And I let you
And I think “Maybe I want it this time”
I think “Maybe this is not poison he is leaking inside of me”
They leap on to buildings
They crash into each other
It is you who saves the day